Ice Cream

Its the middle of winter and I am enjoying myself a nice big bowl of chocolate ice cream. There is six inches of snow and I am having ice cream. Ice cream has to be one of my top things to eat. I use to eat a bowl of ice cream everynight before/while I was doing my homework. It made me happy, brightened up my day and helped me to relax. The bad part was I would get mad at my step mom for the kind of ice cream she would buy or somewhat frustrated when we would go a week or even two with out it.

I am really not on here to talk about ice cream but merely saw it as a means to get things going. I know I had my little "Back from a small break" blog but you know, that blog really didn't do it for me. I am still tense and not really opening up in my writing. I am having a hard time of thinking of what to write next and the things that I am getting ready to write about really need a strong argument, need a strong presentation, need someone who can write that is not named Eric Fraley.

Besides all that, what I really need to do is get my life together. You know, take some time and figure out what I am going to do. Usually I can come up with these conclusions with in an hour or two after the problem has presented itself, but for some reason, these problems aren't getting solved and I keep "hitting a wall" of you will. Its like writers block but more like problem solving block. Its gotten so bad that a friend of mine asked me why I was so serious all the time, I don't know, I can't get things straightened out or fixed up.

I guess that is the real problem. I am never all the way into something. Wrestling, I knew it all, every move that the coaches showed me, I knew, and then some. Why wasn't I a state champ? Real simple, I never wanted it. I would say and go through the motions, but I never did. Summer workouts, never went. Lifting, never did it. Practice, was always there, but never pushed myself to the limit.

Band is another good example. Great teacher, great love for music, but never really cared. I could have gotten scholarships to play at some good schools, but that requires practice, something that I never wanted to do, so, I never did it. I would screw around during rehearsals, never really listened, and never pushed myself to be the best musician I could be.

Life, I seem to have the same problem. I'm lazy, unfocused, not committed, and well, never want anything bad enough to go get it. I know the problem but I don't want to fix it. Yeah it bugs, but its easier to just ignore it and not do anything then to work at it and try to fix it. A lot of people have told me that I could be something or someone great... Well, I am here to tell you, that is a lie! If you are putting your hope and trust in Eric Fraley, you better rethink your go to guy. Great people have to act, they have to actually do and have a desire to do things with their life. I lack the desire, the will to act, and don't care if I do or don't do.

Anyways, enough about me, lets start talking about things that matter, like football.

God speed.