Valentine's Day

Well, here it is, a wonderful Valentine’s Day, full of snow, roses, chocolate, and love. For the past three years I have had a Valentines, if you will. I mean, I have had a girlfriend, or some one of that nature, but this year, nothing. Its not by choice, I like girls, but, this year has just been a little up and down. Too many what if’s but nothing that could really happen. I guess I should explain the whole thing, or as much as I can.

This girl that I like, I meet her my Junior year in seminary. I thought she was nice but she was a freshmen, I was a Junior and so things weren’t going to workout, so I moved on, like I do with most relationships. Its what I do, if I see that a relationship has little to no hope, I ditch, leave it, let it die, no, I help it die. So, I killed this relationship before it even got started. I dated another girl for my Junior year. Next year comes around, I’m a Senior and she’s a Sophomore. The age thing really killed me. I don’t know why, but it did.

So, Senior moves a long and comes to an end, I go to college, and come back home and here she still is. Now its to the point where age doesn’t matter, its just that the timing is all messed up and thus has lead to the reason why I have liked this girl for what, four years now and have yet to take her on a single date. Not even go to the movies with a group of friends.

But, as I sit here on Valentine’s Day, my thoughts are turned to her, just like they are every other night of the week. I figured I would write all these thoughts down so I can remember before I get old and forget, and heck what else could I be doing? Talking to some girl that is ten to twenty hours away that I will never see again in my life yet alone date her… Yeah, last time I checked, my dating life is in limbo right now, with the only hope that this whole situation can uncomplicated itself and I can finally take this girl on a date.

Well, here goes the list of memories, if you will:

Facebook, chocolate milk, Napoleon Dynamite, liger, seminary, crutches, knee brace, torn ACL, soccer, swimming, basketball, shaving my legs, milkshakes, cookies, early morning seminary at my house, the stars, night drives, snow, the snowman she made me, texting, my cellphone, texting song lyrics, Teddy Geiger, Hellogoodbyes, The All American Rejects, Brand New, Taking Back Sunday, Dashboard Confessionals, Phantom of the Opera, someone who hates vegetables, pizza, Dion’s pizza, watching movies, the movie theater, driving to the movie theaters, Diamond Shamrock, Wendy’s, my scriptures, Memory by Sugarcult, Dirty Little Secret, Air Dry, darling, college swim team, sledding, scripture mastery pro, Spanish teacher, hooded sweatshirt with a coat over it, Relient K, great sister, love of the gospel, prom my senior year, my best friend Jordan, milk, The Rasband Dairy, chalkboard, journal, am I fat?

I think that is a pretty good list for starters… Now, I know that there are some girls that have shared some of these things with me but, only one person has related to me in all the above ways. So, if you know who you are, let me know.